feeling better!!

i feel better these days. i am still eating mostly fruit/veg/salad during the day but having a little of whatever dinner i make for the family. I have a lot of weight to lose so I need to get my stamina up and start excercising. I huff and puff if I walk around the block with the dog

Anyway, I am also going to look at the mediteranean diet since that is my background.

not feeling too good, making changes

i was getting sicker the last couple of days. lack of energy, confusion, headache. 2 nights ago i gave up and exhaustedly went to sleep. I read awhile but it was one of those headaches that hurts too much too read but hurts too much too sleep. I layed there trying to falling asleep and felt shaky all over and my heart felt like it was beating hard. i was a mess and i felt really awful. i felt a little better after finally sleeping but the headache, exhaustion and swimmy head continued all day. My husband came home from work and said I looked sick and pale. I decided to eat a cooked dinner with the family, it was a bean and cheese quesadilla. I felt better last night and this morning. I read the signs could have been anemia and I think I was anemica as a kid, gonna call my mom and see if she knows.

I am going to continue with my green smoothies and having lots of fruit and salads during the day. I will probably add in some chicken and fish and some other things. I will have to stop naming my diets. Obviously this won’t be “eating raw” I have learned in the past week (eating 100% Raw) that I don’t WANT to sprout mung beans and dehydrate my food. I think there is a healthy balance that I can achieve eating natural whole foods without going to an extreme.

I don’t know exactly what is next but I feel better today than I have in the last few days eating raw.

Ode to a Green Smoothie

Oh Green Smoothie, how do I love thee?
Let me count the ways…

I love the idea that I just sucked up 2 bananas, 3 strawberries and a few handfuls of Kale and Spinach through a straw lol

I may actually write an Ode to a Green Smoothie. Hmm.

Trying something totally different

I have been reading about Raw Food Diets and am going to give it a try.  I am reading some of the books from my local library and trying to put together a plan to get enough calories and protein, etc. If anyone has experience with this let me know. I will try to keep track in FItday but it does become tedious. I don’t know what % I will eat raw daily. I think I could be happy at 90%+ I don’t generally go for things that are trying to be healthy versions of junk food so I think eating whole foods in their natural state will be best for me. Less prep too. I will be cooking and feeding the rest of the family thier SAD (standard american diet) while trying to stowly replace some of thier meals with raw and/whole healthy foods. They don’t eat too poorly for SAD because I cook everything and they don’t eat take out .

how interesting…

…that the food journal goes out the window same time the eating goes down the drain. the hot fudge sundae sent me into a week long food horror show, i need to pick myself up by the old bootstraps, get back on the saddle, keep a stiff upper lip, don’t let the sun catch me cryin’, walk on the sunny side of the street and any other cliche i can come up with lol

oh, and i didn’t dare weigh-in this morning.

nom nom nom

had my hot fudge sundae, it was so good, now i am over it

cake and pizza, cake and pizza, cake and pizza, cake and pizz

that’s what going through my head all day. i have to take my little girl to a birthday party around dinner time and I am incredibly aware of the fact that cake and pizza will be served. about an hour ago I said, eh – i’ll eat some cake and pizza.

really, i should not eat the cake and pizza. i have eaten next to nothing today and can easily rationalize it with “i’ve been good all week” etc. More likely I will rationalize it with “If i want to be successful with this way of eating I can’t totally deny myself blah blah blah”

Oh well, I dunno – i have been saving up my Naughty for a hot fudge sundae.

Of course, 3 weeks ago I was living on ice cream, candy bars, cookies, chips and heros so eating really healthily 98% of the time is pretty good! Can’t you just see how the little-devil-and angel-on-my-shoulders thing is totally happening right now?

UPDATE: No cake or pizza was consumed at the party.

Getting there

almost at the end of my first week, it feels good. i am more clear-headed. I think i was barely functioning, in a sugar-induced daze. I was irritable and easily overwhelmed/confused/distracted before but I feel happy now, more energetic and am able to stay on task.

It seemd like now that i am getting my eating under control I can start getting other aspects of my life under control. My house, my bills, appearance.

It is going to be a long path to healthy and I have strayed before, i really need to stick with it all this time.

Tomorrow is Official Weigh-In Day. I hope to see some good news!

Day 3

Right at this exact moment I don’t feel like I’m gonna make it This is soooo hard. Why do I start craving after I’ve eaten a meal???

Day 2

Yesterday went well. I didn’t eat any junk the whole day and  I started using Fitday which is a great free program to keep track of food, excercise, weight, etc and it generates all these great graphs and reports. Free I found it really hard after dinner not to eat something sweet. I was so bad before though, I’d go eat a spoon of frosting right out of the can just to satisfy the sweet tooth. I ate alot of fat yesterday and that kept me full, I also ate alot of veggies and a really good salad for dinner. The fat came from avocado, cheese, ranch dressing and olive oil so they were mostly good fat. I could use more protien but I am too lazy to boil an egg (just being honest, and I don’t like cold hard boiled eggs) so I just had an avocado and can of seltzer for breakfast.  I have to find something to satisfy the sweet tooth, get over it mentally or find a huge well of will-power because it is going to be hard!! Off to Fitday now to update …